Update on that Baby!!

Let me first start out by saying... WOW! This whole being pregnant thing... awesome! Aside from the vomiting, nausea, and gaining weight... it is incredible!

We had an appointment last week and the baby's heart rate was 160. What a blessing... It is so amazing how that little heart beat can change your entire world...

I believe I felt the baby last night... I thought this is too soon, and maybe not the right place... So, I called "grandma" and she was like that would be the place... my heart melted... I felt my baby, probably for the first time! It is amazing, and kind of weird to know that you are a housing unit for this little miracle inside of you...

So... there is my update! I will try to update as we go along on this journey! Our next appointment is in January. We should know the gender in January as well.

We're Pregnant!

It finally happened! God is working miracles everyday, in every city... Nate and I found out on October 12th that we were pregnant! It overwhelmed me... All I could do was hug that man that was way more than "just my husband", and cry.... he had battled this storm for so long, I didn't know how we would react had we gotten a positive test. It is amazing how in one instant your life can change, how this baby... so small, can be your entire world. I am so blessed that Nate and I are able to share this... I am truly blessed beyond measure.

Remembering...

Lately I have been really remembering the ones that are no longer with us. I remember the small things... the little details. I remember the last time I seen them, or held them... I think this has all really came about because of my book. Not only are parts very emotional, they are still very fresh. I have been concentrating on it so much, as this has been my dream... and I remember the ones we have lost that had dreams they weren't able to fulfill. It is almost like it is my duty to follow this through. Remember to follow your dreams. They are so precious, and they are yours.

I have attached a few older pics of Sarah and I. If anything they will make you laugh....

My Book

Yeah!! I was told today by CPT (creative publishing team) that my book was captivating and they would be thrilled if I published it through them! How cool it that???

One step closer.....

Ex-Mom

Those of you that know me well, know that before I met the man of my dreams, I was married. With that marriage were two little boys, Trent and Christopher. When we divorced the boys were just turning 3. That was 4 1/2 years ago.

So... last night I was meeting with his now wife, she had some pictures for me. In that I was able to see Trent. Which was Awesome! After being there for a while, I asked Christopher if he remembered me?

Chris: No
Me: That's alright....
Trent: You don't remember Tiffany?
Chris: No....
Trent: She is our Ex-Mom....

They continued to talk..... kids crack me up!

Tired....

So, Kaden and I are in the car driving to Grandma's House. He is in the backseat eating Sweet Tarts. I was a little nervous cause I didn't want him to choke, so every couple of minutes I would say,"Kaden-are you ok?" I would then tell him, "remember to chew and chew..." After about 15 minutes of this, Kaden goes "I don't want these anymore" I asked him why and he said, "My teeth are tired...." I couldn't help it.... I laughed!

Better Days

I am so damn frustrated! We went to the doctor yesterday, and he pretty much gave us no hope. Not, that it is the doctor's fault... cause it isn't.... but I get so angry... What bothers me the most.... NOTHING is covered by insurance! NOTHING.... NOTHING..... NOTHING! But, the state of Wisconsin will keep supporting women who go out and get pregnant as their source of income. (I'm not saying anything bad about people that need help, and are making a valid effort... that is why it is there. Not for the people that are just plain LAZY!) So, I wonder if I lost my job, if the state would start paying for all this fertility stuff? I am just talking out my butt.... I just get irritated.... Nate and I want a baby, and unless we come up with some major cash quick... we will wait and wait.....

I know this is all part of God's master plan, I think that is the only reason I haven't lost it by now. I can't remember the last time I got so emotional about anything.....

Hoping for sunnier days!
Tyff