My Book

Yeah!! I was told today by CPT (creative publishing team) that my book was captivating and they would be thrilled if I published it through them! How cool it that???

One step closer.....

Ex-Mom

Those of you that know me well, know that before I met the man of my dreams, I was married. With that marriage were two little boys, Trent and Christopher. When we divorced the boys were just turning 3. That was 4 1/2 years ago.

So... last night I was meeting with his now wife, she had some pictures for me. In that I was able to see Trent. Which was Awesome! After being there for a while, I asked Christopher if he remembered me?

Chris: No
Me: That's alright....
Trent: You don't remember Tiffany?
Chris: No....
Trent: She is our Ex-Mom....

They continued to talk..... kids crack me up!

Tired....

So, Kaden and I are in the car driving to Grandma's House. He is in the backseat eating Sweet Tarts. I was a little nervous cause I didn't want him to choke, so every couple of minutes I would say,"Kaden-are you ok?" I would then tell him, "remember to chew and chew..." After about 15 minutes of this, Kaden goes "I don't want these anymore" I asked him why and he said, "My teeth are tired...." I couldn't help it.... I laughed!

Better Days

I am so damn frustrated! We went to the doctor yesterday, and he pretty much gave us no hope. Not, that it is the doctor's fault... cause it isn't.... but I get so angry... What bothers me the most.... NOTHING is covered by insurance! NOTHING.... NOTHING..... NOTHING! But, the state of Wisconsin will keep supporting women who go out and get pregnant as their source of income. (I'm not saying anything bad about people that need help, and are making a valid effort... that is why it is there. Not for the people that are just plain LAZY!) So, I wonder if I lost my job, if the state would start paying for all this fertility stuff? I am just talking out my butt.... I just get irritated.... Nate and I want a baby, and unless we come up with some major cash quick... we will wait and wait.....

I know this is all part of God's master plan, I think that is the only reason I haven't lost it by now. I can't remember the last time I got so emotional about anything.....

Hoping for sunnier days!
Tyff

Just out of reach....

Does God hear me when i cry myself to sleep? Can anyone see what this is doing to me? I want to be a mommy so badly that it hurts inside... I know i need to shift focus, i know that my plan might not be God's plan.... but i am bullheaded and i want him to spell it out, LOUD AND CLEAR!

Off to the laundry..... hopefully i will be in better spirits soon!

Love

Verse

I received this email from a friend.... it really speaks to you.....

"to get something you never had, you have to do something you never did..." When God takes something from your grasp, he's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence: "The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will no protect you...."

Have a wonderful 4th of July!
We are going to the zoo!

Cheers!

Failure

As much as i don't think i am a failure, this week... i feel like i am. Yup, you guessed it.... i got my period and am not pregnant, once again. Just one more month, i am beginning to think this will never happen and that God has other plans for my life. I am just tired of the disappointment.... it is such a let down month after month.... I feel incomplete that i can't get pregnant...

Thanks to everyone who has been standing beside me and Nate during this really Long process...

Tiff